Nothing.. nada

Gahhhhh.. 

it's been a long time since I last wrote on my blog.. 

I totally miss this..
well.. as usual, a lot happened.. 

After one whole month of waiting and anticipating.. 

everything wasted.. 

I'm glad its over and am not any part of it.. 

Part of me is relieved, another part of me is grieving inside.. 

I didn't stop there though.. 

after knowing that I got ''rejected''.. 

I called another few centers' .. 

and they gave me quite good responses.. 

One told me to go for an interview

that'll be scheduled for me next week.. 

am really anticipating their call. 

Then again.. anticipation. 

The other told me they're still under renovation..

BUT.. is hiring people.. 

sent in my resume.. and told me to wait for their call.. 

I've learned not to put too much hope on something.. 

because usually if there is too much hope.. 

there will be GREAT disappointment.. 

I'll try anything.. for now that is..
I'll just apply wherever.. wait for them.. 

If they all want me.. then I'll have to reject.
sometimes you just got to accept things the hard way right?

That's the other thing I learned..
I hope everything will go out well.. 

sometimes things are not meant to be for you.. 

then just leave it.. 

the right one will come.. 

so don't be disappointed.. 

until next time.. 

Tears Always Win

These covers

May keep me warm at night

But they can't take your place

Cause they never gonna hold me tight

And these pillows

May let me rest my head

But they can't say good night

And tuck me in before I go to bed

Say now baby girl you're better off

That's what I'm telling myself (over and over)

But I'm lying to myself

Cause I know I don't want nobody else

[Chorus:]

These lips are missing you

Cause these lips ain't kissing you

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

These arms are wanting you

Cause these arms ain't holding you

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

These candles

Light up my room at night

But they can't light the room they way you did

When you walked inside, oh baby

If these walls could sing

About everything they've witnessed

Oh it'd be a sad sad song

And it'll probably sound something like this

Say now baby girl you're better off

That's what I'm telling myself (over and over)

But I'm lying to myself

Cause I know I don't want nobody else

[Chorus:]

These lips are missing you

Cause these lips ain't kissing you

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

These arms are wanting you

Cause these arms ain't holding you

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

Tell me when the hell this loneliness is gonna be over

When everything in this room reminds me of you

Everytime I think, I'm getting closer

Cause tears drown me out, once again I lose

These lips are missing you

These lips ain't kissing you

I put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

These arms are wanting you

These arms ain't holding you

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

Crying like oh oh...

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

Crying like oh oh...

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

These eyes put up a fight

But once again these tears always win

Please?

Please don't raise your voice at me..

I'm afraid when you talk a bit louder than usual..

I'm sorry for being such a noob.. 

Please don't leave me alone in times of need..

I'm afraid that I might fall in a black hole and never be able to come out..

I'm sorry for being such a scardy cat..

Please don't leave me hanging for a long time..

I will wait and wait till you come back for me..

I'm sorry for acting like a kid so much.. 

Please don't scold me if I've done anything wrong..

It would feel like you've stab my heart..

I'm sorry for being a baby..

Please don't ignore me when im talking to you..

It would make me feel that you don't love me anymore..

I'm sorry for being an annoyance..

Please be nice to me.. 

I don't want to feel like some stranger you annoy of..

I want to feel the love you have for me.. 

Please give me a hug..when I need one or randomly..

It would melt my heart to be in your arms..

I want to be your baby.. 

Please give me a shoulder to lean on.. 

I'd get tired at times and need something to hang on to ..

I want to rest peacefully..

Please answer my calls when i'm calling..

I believe I haven't much time left..

I want to cherish every moment I have left with you..

I'm sorry if I'm asking too much..

You may feel that I'm nothing but an annoying person 

but in time you'll know.. in time you'll understand..

in time you'll miss it.. 

You're a great friend

I never regret knowing you.. 

I won't want to ..

missing person ♥

The feeling has been going on for a week now
and I hardly think that it will wear out till a month or two
do I have to do that for two months too?

Can I hold on that long?
all I wanted was to hear you..
to have companion..

where have you been to..
For all this while?
Are you still here?

You never surface no more..
what has gotten in to you?
Are you okay?

The calls.. The texts..
Non.. are answered..
Are you hiding something?

Remember what you once promised me..
that you will tell me about anything..
and if you feel troubled..

I'm always praying for you..
for your safety and health..
please be okay..

Pain and Problems

I admit that I do not have any rights to control you

no power to command you to do anything

no power to control over who you like or who your friends are

but get this straight..

I want to be a friend that is always 

there for you whenever you need to talk

or whenever you are having problems..

Even if I couldn't help you solve the problem in hand

at least I tried my best to calm you down

and let your heart out a big sigh..

to share your burden..

to lend you a listening ear.. 

to lend you some warmth of comforting words

I may not be a perfect person

I may not be your perfect friend

you may hate my appearance at times

I know that I annoy you.. 

but please.. don't treat me like some cheap person

I have imperfections.. I know that

Im weak.. at controlling my emotions..

I get hurt easily.. get mad easily..

and be happy like crazy whenever I am.. 

please accept my flaws.. 

I want to tell you something 

sincerely from me..

you are one of a kind

you have lots of brilliant ideas and advises

but sometimes you cant express yourself properly

you can make people feel they are not priceless..

Everyone has their weak moments 

not to mention you.. 

I know you are not at ease

I know you need time.. 

Im not sure if you even want to talk to me about your problems

but when you really do want to talk.. Im ready for you

because I don't want you to be sad or worry about something 

you know you can talk to me about anything..

please trust me okay? 

A dream that I'll cherish forever

beautiful..
sweet..
remarkable..
one of the most sweetest dreams..
I just hope that i can have it again.. and again..
I want it to come to life..
so that i'll be able to feel how its like to be hugged and loved like that..

T-ara(티아라) _ Cry Cry Choreography (Cry Cry 안무과정공개)

I prefer their choreography version than the mv :)